Seeking Clarity

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Enlightened to change

To view life differently

Alter perspectives

To seek the unknown

Search deep within my soul to

Beautifully transform

Haiku-Friday

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Thrill Seeker

Ask, and it shall be given you; Seek and you shall find…

A new year is always full of new beginnings, endless possibilities and the sense that we can ultimately, once again, start anew. It is a refreshing, yet daunting feeling, especially if you were less than satisfied with the previous year.

As a way to focus myself, since I am not one for New Year’s resolutions, I choose a word for the year. It is not a new thing and I have done it for the past two years. In fact, it has become a sort of cult. Ok, maybe not that extreme but that makes you want to join in doesn’t it?

So as I pondered my word from last year, thinking about how I used it to change me, I wondered where I should go with this new word. I have spent a lot of time pondering, gnawing it over, listening, but most of all – waiting. Waiting for when I got ‘that‘ feeling that THIS is what I need to work on, this is where I need to focus. And then it hit me, like it has every time before… BAM!

SEEK

It’s definitions scream to me:

  • to go in search or quest of: to seek the truth.
  • to try to find or discover by searching or questioning.
  • to try to obtain.
  • to try or attempt.
  • to go to: to seek a place to rest.
  • to ask for; request.
  • to explore.

What will I find if I truly seek what is out there for me. While the thought is frightening (what if I don’t like what I find), it also invigorates me. So with that, my journey has begun. I have no idea where this word journey will take me this year but here’s hoping for a wild ride!

Confidence In Truth

I often search within myself to find what I know is true. Sometimes it can be the most difficult and challenging task. For often, there lurking in the shadows of my soul, is an evil monster. While he may be small in size, he is able to bring the strongest of men crashing to their knees with just a fleeting glance. He is powerful enough to make you walk away from your wants and dreams, without a second glimpse or thought. What is this monster you query? The demon within me is doubt, and to conquer him, I must BELIEVE.

One Word 365

Aaah, 2012. Here you are. I could be cliche and say, “Wow! You sure snuck up on me. Where did the past year go?” But in all honesty, I know where this year went. I lived, cried, laughed and grew through it. I think, for the most part, I came out of it a better and stronger person.

Last year I participated in Big Picture’s ‘One Little Word‘ class. My word for the year was ‘Grace’. I loved spending the year embracing, reflecting, exploring and living with grace. In fact, I loved my word so much I tattooed it on my wrist!But alas, 2011 is over and I must find and embrace a new word and a new challenge: One Word 365. A word that will challenge me to change and grow in all aspects of my life. A word that will resonate with me. A word that will inspire. My word you wonder? My word is:

I will say, I think it is kind of funny how words jump out at you. When I signed up last year I knew my word immediately. I knew what I needed to work on. I knew what I needed. Flash forward another year and I am smacked in the face again. Once again, I know what I need to work on, I know what I need in my life – I need to believe.

I need to believe in myself. I need to believe that love conquers all. I need to believe that there are good people in the world. I need to believe in happiness. I need to believe I can do anything I put my heart into. I need to believe I can write. I need to believe in my children. I need to believe that someday, everything will make sense. I need to believe that it is okay to walk away from the laundry, computer,etc. and hang with my family. I need to believe that sometimes ‘good enough’ is enough. I need to believe that I can make mistakes. I need to believe in forgiveness. I need to believe in grace.

What would you pick as One Word for this year?