Lost

January 26, 2012 By Kat Filed Under kat facts, life

Traveling down the dark and unfamiliar road. The moon provides intermittent patches of light between the ominous billowing clouds. My head is spinning and my feet can’t find the ground. Dredging memories from my youth, trying to feverishly re-knit the past. Trying to find meaning amidst the clouds of uncertainty.

Your mind knows where to exit yet it refuses to go – not ready. Wishing there was a different route, a different choice. But alas, it is not your choice, not your decision to make. The decision rest in His hands. Even though you argue and disagree, it is His will.

So I sit, knowing that someday the tables will spin and it will be me at the head of the table. I will have to sift through the fog that slowly rolls in, filling all my void with uncertainty. I will be left, searching for the ever true light…..And I know, you will be there, right next to me.

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Silenced

January 19, 2012 By Kat Filed Under indie ink

Snow, sassy irish lassieThe main road was dark and quiet. News of the storm was all anyone had been talking about for days. Jack had been sure to stock up on all the necessities the day before. He just had one more stop to make before he headed home to settle in the for the storm.

He checked his rear-view mirror. Only the pale flecks of the falling snow could be seen dancing across the blackened night sky. Jack pulled to the side of the road, laced up his boots, and grabbed his hat and gloves. The wind tore through his jacket as he walked to the back of his truck. He opened the tailgate, sliding his truncheon to the side, and reached in with both hands.

“Better get a move on before we are both stuck in the snow”, he sniggered.

The road had iced over, making it difficult to maneuver the extra weight. But nothing was as difficult as what he had witnessed when he came home early the other night. Her words had been like daggers, digging deep and twisting to the core. She had told him he was too effete for her taste, that she needed a real man to satisfy her needs. She thought she was so smug with her big words but he wasn’t as naive as she thought. He knew about all her time in those stupid chat rooms. She was never smart enough to erase the history.

After that, he knew what he had to do. There was no wavering, never a second thought to his decision. Things needed to be made right and he was just the man to do it.

He pulled his collar up around his neck and stuffed his hands deep into his pockets. The storm was just starting to pick up and Jack could feel the temperature dropping. The weatherman proclaimed it as going to be the snowstorm of the century this afternoon on the news. That was exactly the weather report Jack wanted to hear.

As he began to walk back to his truck, a blue glimmer in the snow caught his eye. The snow was softly falling on the body, creating the illusion of  fluffy white blanket. He stooped down and smirked when he realized what had caught his attention. She had always insisted on wearing that God-awful necklace – saying it brought her luck.

“Well look at all the luck it brought you now missy.”

Jack fingered the blue and green ostrich charm in his palm. “I have just the place for you little fella.” With a swift tug the necklace was free and dangling from his finger tips. He slid it in his shirt pocket and quickly re-zipped his jacket to fight off the wind’s brutal assault. The silence in his head was golden.

For the IndieInk Writing Challenge this week, ChrisWhiteWrites challenged me with “Use the words effete, truncheon and wavering in your story. Also, include an ostrich. Oh, and for bonus virtual high-fives adopt an orphan prompt from IndieInk. I chose: ‘The snow was falling softly on the body” and I challenged Kelly Garriott Waite with “Use these words in your story: doctor, roll of film, stairwell, telephone“.

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Confidence In Truth

January 17, 2012 By Kat Filed Under 100 words

I often search within myself to find what I know is true. Sometimes it can be the most difficult and challenging task. For often, there lurking in the shadows of my soul, is an evil monster. While he may be small in size, he is able to bring the strongest of men crashing to their knees with just a fleeting glance. He is powerful enough to make you walk away from your wants and dreams, without a second glimpse or thought. What is this monster you query? The demon within me is doubt, and to conquer him, I must BELIEVE.

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I Just Wanna Run

January 17, 2012 By Kat Filed Under kat facts

I just wanna run, sassy irish lassieI have a secret. Something that, if you knew me now you would never believe. Before I had kids, I hated running. Kind of ironic since I play soccer, but running just to run – not finding the love. I would play double header games, join any pick up game I could find and run with a ball forever, but something about just me, my thoughts and the open road was not inviting to me. Till one day, I made myself do it. Now, I can’t go a day without it.

You can read the rest of my review HERE.

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Stark Mystery

January 12, 2012 By Kat Filed Under indie ink

The ancient bonsai

Full of mystery and intrigue

Wrapped in history

Branches intertwine

Dancing with intricacy

Delicate, yet strong

Where coiling eels meet

Gorgeous shades of green emerge

Embracing their roots

Miniature in size

Elementary in beauty

And fashioned with love

For the IndieInk Writing Challenge this week, Carrie challenged me with “bonsai, elementary, coiling eels” and I challenged Grace O’Malley with “Create a story or poem based on this personification: The sun bows as pain vibrates“.

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One Word 365

January 4, 2012 By Kat Filed Under kat facts, life

Aaah, 2012. Here you are. I could be cliche and say, “Wow! You sure snuck up on me. Where did the past year go?” But in all honesty, I know where this year went. I lived, cried, laughed and grew through it. I think, for the most part, I came out of it a better and stronger person.

Last year I participated in Big Picture’s ‘One Little Word‘ class. My word for the year was ‘Grace’. I loved spending the year embracing, reflecting, exploring and living with grace. In fact, I loved my word so much I tattooed it on my wrist!But alas, 2011 is over and I must find and embrace a new word and a new challenge: One Word 365. A word that will challenge me to change and grow in all aspects of my life. A word that will resonate with me. A word that will inspire. My word you wonder? My word is:

I will say, I think it is kind of funny how words jump out at you. When I signed up last year I knew my word immediately. I knew what I needed to work on. I knew what I needed. Flash forward another year and I am smacked in the face again. Once again, I know what I need to work on, I know what I need in my life – I need to believe.

I need to believe in myself. I need to believe that love conquers all. I need to believe that there are good people in the world. I need to believe in happiness. I need to believe I can do anything I put my heart into. I need to believe I can write. I need to believe in my children. I need to believe that someday, everything will make sense. I need to believe that it is okay to walk away from the laundry, computer,etc. and hang with my family. I need to believe that sometimes ‘good enough’ is enough. I need to believe that I can make mistakes. I need to believe in forgiveness. I need to believe in grace.

What would you pick as One Word for this year?

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2011 in Review

December 29, 2011 By Kat Filed Under kat facts

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before? Got a bikini wax – first and last.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Not a big fan of New Year’s Resolutions but I did stick to my change of eating lifestyle…. well until Thanksgiving. It has been all down here from there. I WILL be revisiting it starting January 1st! Hello vegan!!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth? Yes.  My best friend from high school, though I haven’t gotten my hands on that nugglet yet! I also had quite a few close Blissfully Domestic friends give birth. Yeah for babies!! THIS JUST IN – my brother went to the hospital as I was typing this to give birth to their first baby – a girl!!

4. Did anyone close to you die? Thankfully no.

5. What places did you visit? Las Vegas, Nashville, Colorado, Michigan, Honduras, Utilla, Cabo and Boston.

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011? Patience, a sense of calm and organization.

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? November 15th – Bear had two teeth pulled and I found out I won a trip to learn to surf at Las Olas Surf Safari.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Getting the negative people out of my life and surrounding myself with people who truly love me and make me happy AND expanding my abilities as a writer.

9. What was your biggest failure? Letting mean people win. It took me quite some time to realize the haters are just truly jealous. Life is too short to let the haters win.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury? Thankfully pretty healthy, just one knee issue that hampered me for a week.

11. What was the best thing you bought? My Hubby’s 40th birthday present. The look on his face when he opened it was priceless and I think (in fact I know) I rocked the Best Present EVER Award.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration? The Love Drop Team. Every month they help a different person or family – for no other reason than the goodness in their heart. You rarely meet truly ‘good‘ peeps. These guys are good peeps.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? The Pen State debacle. It sickened me to the core.

14. Where did most of your money go? While I would love to be snarky and say Hubby’s ex-wife, I think more money actually went towards our mortgage (but not much!).

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? Our trip to Utilla. A week alone on an isolated island with my Hubby – divine!! Plus I got to see where his family came from and learn about his roots.

16. What song will always remind you of 2011? LMFAO – I’m Sexy and I Know It.  This song has been a constant in our house and has provided me with hours of entertainment watching the boys dance to it.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

  • happier or sadder? Definitely happier
  • thinner or fatter? thinner though this last month has given me a cookie belly.
  • richer or poorer? I am richer in my faith, my walk with God and am blessed everyday beyond what I deserve.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of? I wish I had more time to read real books.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of? Worried, dwell on the negative and not taking the time to live in the moment.

20. How did you spend Christmas in 2011? With my entire family – first time in years. It was a great day.

21. Did you fall in love in 2011? I fell more in love with my husband everyday.

22. What was your favorite TV program? NCIS (both versions), Hawaii 50, Criminal Minds and Survivor.

23. What did you do for your birthday in 2011? Hubby threw me a surprise birthday party and my most favorite Michigan friend wrote another birthday homage that made me cry for days. I love both of them very much for making my day special!

24. What was the best book you read? Outlander by Diana Gabaldon

25. What did you want and get?  A yummy green B Makowsky purse (thanks Hubby)

26. What did you want and not get?  The last word. But maybe that is a good thing.

27. What was your favorite film of this year?  I loved introducing my boys to the Muppets.

28. Did you make some new friends this year?  Yes! I made a great new friend and she makes me laugh every day. KKP!!

29.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?  I hate to say it, but I can’t think of anything. While my year has had its ups and down, I truly think I am a better person from all the negative experiences. That which doesn’t kill us makes us stronger!

30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?  My own. I fluctuate between jean and converse, cords and Berks, sundresses, sassy boots – the whole gamut.

31. What kept you sane?  Writing, music, dancing, coffee and vino.

32. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? I do fancy me some Bradley Cooper.

33. What political issue stirred you the most?  I think most politics make a bigger deal of things then they need to.

34. Who did you miss?  I miss my friend in Nashua and my Grandma – every day.

35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011. People are never who they appear or pretend to be so don’t always try and be the nice lassie.

How would you answer these questions? I would love to read your answers. I will also take a moment to point out that, while I am not a fan of meme’s, I did enjoy the reflection this one brought. Sometimes we move from one year to the other so quickly, that we forget all the things we learned. Thank you Yoga Mom for making me take the time to reflect.

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Friday Haiku – For Sale By Owner

December 23, 2011 By Kat Filed Under haiku friday


Presents are all wrapped
Placed neatly under the tree
Such a sight to see

Till an evil dog
Decides they are all for her
And shreds them to bits

Don’t let her cute bow
Deceive you in any way
She’s a naughty pooch

Be sure to head over to Lou’s to read what everyone else is haikuing about this week.

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Lock down

December 22, 2011 By Kat Filed Under indie ink

The booming voice on the microphone became muffled as I shut the bathroom door behind me. My heart was racing in my chest and it took everything in me to not have a complete and utter breakdown.

I walked over to the sink and turned on the cold water. As I looked in the mirror I hardly recognized the person staring back at me. My face was pale with beads of sweat trickling down my hairline. “Seriously man, get a grip“, I said to the pathetic reflection staring back at me.

I knew I only had a few more minutes before they were going to begin the awards ceremony and I wanted to make sure I was in my seat before they dimmed the lights. Tonight was the culmination of my life’s work and I was not going to miss my big moment. Countless hours of research, days upon days away from my family, holed up in my office till I found the ‘perfect’ chemical combination. Tonight, the ultimate prize was mine.

I quickly splashed some water on my face and turned off the faucet. When I turned to grab a hand towel I heard the distinct sound of a dead bolt sliding into place.

Well that’s weird, I thought as I tossed my crumpled towel in the garbage can. I quickly ran my hand through my hair and straightened my tie. Now’s my time to shine!

I pulled on the door handle but the door didn’t budge. I tugged and yanked with all my might, but each time my pull was met with resistance. “What the……”  I began frantically tugging at the door handle. What is going on? Why won’t this door open??

Outside I heard the ceremony music begin to play. NO! This can’t be happening! I began to pound on the door. “Help! Somebody please help me!”

The music was too loud and was drowning out my pleas and I was sure everyone was already back in their seats. How could this be happening? Why now? After everything I have done to get here.

I turned and slid my back down the door till I hit the floor with a thud. As I rested my head in my hands I heard the president our company begin his introduction – MY introduction. I sat and listened as he went on and on about my research, my discoveries, my progress for the human race. When he announced my name it was welcomed with silence, or at least I thought. His next words hit me like a punch in the groin. “Since Jack had to leave unexpectedly and will unable to accept his award this evening, his assistant Tim has graciously offered to accept on his behalf.”

And with that, everything became clear.

For the IndieInk Writing Challenge this week, Trencher challenged me with “A character is locked in a bathroom at the worst possible time. ” and I challenged Melissa with “Create a story or poem inspired by a line in a Charles Bukowski poem: “some suicides are never recorded.”".

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Friday Haiku – Punk Rock Princess

December 16, 2011 By Kat Filed Under haiku friday

Every now and then

I let my inner punk show

In a subtle way.

Be sure to head over to Lou’s to read what everyone else is haikuing about this week.

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